Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Being Twenty Something...

Just now a friend sent me a mail and while reading it I felt as if someone read my mind before writing it. Read it for sure if you are in your twenties.

Maybe we all r going through this "Being Twenty-Something". They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going
along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start
realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it
is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.
One
minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to
look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look
pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and
over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Please do comment and tell me whether you feel the same...

2 comments:

Vaibhav Choudhary said...

Ya Chirag,

When mind is under low ebb we feel sometime ourself unsecure. But the day we make ourself busy, these feeling vanishes out !!!


They came on a night when the wind shrieked and lashed the land.

So, i even feared alone somewhere in night.

Future perception blurs my present work, and creates a sense of uneasiness , unsecure.

Anonymous said...

Hey Chirag,
Nice description of the 20-something mental state. I suppose the feeling is pretty universal, and even expected, especially in the competitive environment developing capitalist States find themselves in. But dont you think thi same feeling makes the whole thing fun? I mean, finally the simulation will be over and done with, and we can get a taste of the real for a change.
I have NO idea what I am talking about !

Saksham